I have some small evidence that the abuse and the abuser haven’t won and I have been stronger than him

Many of times I have thought I should rather just shave all of my hair off my head, been bald. He stuck hairbrushes front and back.. Thought of the pains are horrible. Have lost count of how many hairbrushes I have thrown in the bin because of it, and broken in anger. And some days I am like a big bust troll because I can’t manage the thought of holding that hairbrush in my hand.. Now my hair has grown long enough again so I can make plaits again and make waves in my hair. And then I get away with a few days not having to use the brush in my hair. Short hair is something I am not comfortable with, so bald is something I rather not become.